Are my group mates trying to murder us??!!!

I'm getting a feeling like they're.. No, some of them... are like leeches, clinging on to you, depending on you for their nutrients. And when they've got what they needed, they leave you and come back for more when they have or feel the need to again.

Everything is being thrown our way. Even if sometimes I feel like we're attracting the workload.. Somehow.

I'm very concerned about credits. Not the units wan.. The This-is-my-shit-so-you-credit-me 'credits'.. *The print on my keyboard is fading, I keep typing the wrong letters. Blardy hell.*.. Tell me how do you evaluate/count/whatever this. If a member copy and pastes sentence after sentence and hands it up to you for editing as his/her work, resulting in you having to edit the whole script, would you put your name or that member's name in the credits section??

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I've been looking at American universities. Only two up till now. American University and Rochester Institute of Technology. I feel for... Advertising or Fashion Photography, Film Production, Psychology and Events Management (This one probably credit transfer to Uni of Queensland. But may not be practical. The subjects seem to be very business-y).

Don't know where I want to go from here actually. Lost sheep again.

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Do you guys think I'm talkative?

I was told by a counsellor that I am. Shocking.

And did you guys know that I actually DO like talking? I don't even know why I remain silent most of the time. Maybe the topics weren't much to talk about. Or I was just not bothered to actually listen. huh... Ohhh ohhh.. Wanna know my favourite topic? Me. HAHAhAHaHahAhaAhAhAHaaaa..

Ya. So, as you can see, I'm quite self-centered and rather busy-body as well. But I'd like you all to know that I CAN keep secrets. Even if I self-declare talkative. And I never force anyone to tell me what they don't want to tell..*boasting*.. If they wanted me to know, they will eventually let me know wert right..

I welcome all comments on whether or not this statement is true. Just to see if my memory really sucks that bad.

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I had a short chat with KaiXi an hour or so ago and I told him I forgot how he looks like already. So sad lar.. Can't even remember a friend's face. Never seen him for like.. *counting*.. probably 6 months? The last time I saw him was in SS2. I was on my way home and there he was standing on the sidewalk, huddled together with his CC friends doing God knows what. Now everyone busy liao.. His transferring to PJCAD next year and he will say "Hello" to assignments and projects. Basically everyone is doing that lar..

A promise I made with Siok Wah is also finding a hard time trying to settle itself. I free, Ah Wah not free. So on.. other engagements and stuff lar..

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Right now, I'm a person with no objectives and am rather bitter.