Public letter/open letter

Dear World/Readers,



I don't suppose I have been very, very truthful with you.



That got your attention, didn't it?

I mean, a whole bunch here is all real. But sometimes they just aren't really what they seem to be.

I believe a lot of my posts portray someone rather happy? Or joyful. Whatever. Truth is..


(It's not that long. There's just a whole lot of empty spaces. Really.)


Blogs aren't too personal anymore. Especially when it involves advertisers.

Yes, it still can be personal. But just not truly personal, if you get what I mean.

Just my opinion.

By committing yourself to an advertiser, you should have the responsibility to maintain your ranking (since advertisers go by PageRank and whatnot). Naturally, you'd take caution in what you write, so to minimize the chances of you turning off a loyal reader.

Well, I don't know about you, but that's how it seems to me. And is, for me.


(I suppose you may think I'm BSing a whole lot, but this is what I have to say. And I do have a point.)


By taking caution, you'd probably start building an image. Consciously or unconsciously. If readers enjoy or like the personality of the author your blog portrays, wouldn't it be better/beneficial to maintain and build that personality?

You can look at it from different angles. Money. Responsibility. Or yourself. I guess you can lump writing for responsibility and yourself together. They're pretty much the same.

Money. You do it to increase the readership and build an empire. You write funny things or anything that may cause a debate. For traffic and to build an interest. The bigger the readership, the higher the traffic, the more you earn.

Responsibility. You cultivate the personality because it's a principle you stand by, or it's just your thing: to be committed and, well, responsible (to the advertiser). It is your duty to maintain readership and interest so it is fair to the party commissioning you.

Yourself. That personality of yours is most probably real. So you're writing because it is your interest. Bringing in traffic and the money is all a bonus.

I'd like to believe I'm in the middle. A grey area. Maybe some of you are, too.


I write it this way because I'd like to earn some cash.

I write it this way because I am a commissioned blogger. And hence, the responsibility.

I write it this way because it's me.


Like I said, I don't really know what you guys feel, but I suppose I give out the impression that I'm happy most of the time? Or maybe lighthearted is the word. Or casual. Extremely casual.

True, I tend to be that way, I suppose. Why? Because I forget things easily. Emotions? Sometimes.

I start writing, new thoughts creep up, and I get carried away and start straying at some point. The original thought or emotion is still there. I won't forget that. And I'll eventually return where I started off. It just, disappears for a tiny moment.

And I have a strong tendency to entertain you people. No idea why.

Now, I feel like a fish.


What I'm trying to say is..

What you read isn't entirely true. The emotional aspect and a wee bit of the content (It's kinda edited. Information omitted that kinda thing. Not very serious la). I'm not really the happy person I seem to portray.

Alright. If not happy, then delightful. Somewhat chirpy. Gay. Intoxicated. Whatever.

As in, this post tells about how I enjoyed this and that, what was so great about it. But, no.

Shit happened and I didn't mention it. Not so great.

One, trying to maintain that carefree image because of responsibility. Two, trying to entertain you. Keep you happy, in a way. To make sure you have something nice to read. Doubt it works though. Some bloody characteristic in humans, I suppose. To do something to feel accepted.

If you think that it's not necessary to maintain an image, fine. Your opinion. Individuals think differently and prioritise different aspects. They do things which they think is important.

Did I mention? (I dare say it) I'm brutally honest. Direct, if you may. Or blunt.

So what you read is.. 10 percent fake? That makes it 90 percent real. This whole letter is 100 percent real.


Another point I'd like to mention.


I suppose some of you may know Bernard, my teman lelaki? (I'd put up a photo of him. But things are a little rocky at the moment. So I'll just get to the point. But seriously la, he's so cute. Handsome. To the girls at least. =) Cute as in adorable ya.)

Yeah well. Notice that news of him is extremely scarce?

One, I'd like to have some privacy.

Two, I personally don't enjoy reading about how one's boyfriend loves her so much. How she likes to do this to him. Or that. .. That came out wrong.


See? Another attempt to entertain you. IF you've made it this far.


How cute her boyfriend's ears are etc. I know a guy whose blog is entirely about his girlfriend. Writing stories even. I read a bit and swore never to go back there again.

Just not my kind of read.

Yes, you can blog about what you did on Monday, Wednesday, the weekend, so on so forth. But some couples don't go to the mall. Some couples don't go out a lot, but stay home and chill together. And whatever they do when they're alone is none of your business. (I'm just saying. Don't mean to sound harsh or anything.)

Does that answer your question?

Or perhaps, the way you blog it can be different. More interesting. Yes, I can. I'll continue with this later.

So..

Because I don't enjoy reads like this, I tend to have a funny impression of people who have contents like this. You can take it as gushing. Showing off. Boasting. Nothing-to-write-about-meh-?.

All of that, I don't want to be.

And if I'm somewhat against these kind of things, I won't publish anything like this, too.


BUT.


It seems unfair, doesn't it?

I blog about my friends. How everything is going oh-so-smooth. But he is nowhere to be seen. Read about. Heard of.

As if he "didn't exist"?

So now, I'd like all of you to know that he exists.

Bernard, his name, shall be seen somewhat often. (Still depends on what I blog about though. I don't update as often anymore unless I've got a truckload of sponsored entries to complete. BUT that doesn't mean you don't have to check back!)

You'll read about us seeing each other every other day. Or sometimes, everyday. And seriously, I don't mind even though some of you find it unnecessary and ask me, "Not bored wan meh??".

And about the thing about me writing it differently, that's what I'm going to do. I mean, I'll have my own way of writing it la. Don't bother.

Yeah.

Oh. I curse like a sailor. That's what I like to believe. =)

You see no swear words, extreme ones, because I believe I've got juniors lurking in and around the dark alleys of the World Wide Web.

This one is a bit different. Have to 'set an example'.

Besides, I'm not supposed to be cursing anyway.



Wow. Two hours and twenty minutes on this.

I've got freaking talent to write opinion pieces.

*sniggers*


Conclusion. I'm going to write what I truly, TRULY feel. You'll get every single detail. It'll be interesting. Don't worry. Why?

Because I'm weird.